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I'm soooo fucking pissed right now. My mom took my brothers xbox away so he has hidden the remote to the tv. You can't do diddle squat on my tv without the remote. I hardly ever go on the tv as it is cause he always playing frickin counterstrike on it and now I can't at all cause he has decided to be a utter dick. My mom can't do shit with him and I tried talking to him and looking for it myself but he is just being a jerk.

I have a couple pics up on jpgmag.com for the new themes if you ant to go vote for me..well if you like them :P

I was thinking about doing some food shots as I never do still lifes..

http://www.jpgmag.com/photos/957755

http://www.jpgmag.com/photos/957742

Thank you Alana, I love you

Here's another from the shoot we did a couple of months ago:



model: Dasa
designs by Peacock Blue
sylist: Pegg Legg Megg
photo by LITHIUM PICNIC studio

Karen invited me to a preview of the movie Towelhead a few days ago. It's about a 13-yr. old half-Lebanese girl dealing with hatred and bigotry in suburban Texas while developing her own gender and sexual identity and how social pressures, particularly male social pressures, attempt to mold her into a cultural ideal.

That's what I got out of it anyway, along with a few other interesting tidbits concerning intersecting oppressions, exploitation, the media and so forth.

So why do I feel like all these other movie reviewers are missing the point? They're talking about the "relationship" between the 13 yr. old protaganist and the 30-something pedophile rapist or the 13 yr. old "sexual deviance," or her father's "comedic timing" and not talking at all about race or gender.

Just...gah.

she says she's going
but she can't decide
which train to take
or when to get in line
meanwhile we're waiting
just outside the station
i'd like to be on my way
but she won't say goodbye
my watch says 3:20
i guess i have some time
i'll sip a dark espresso
hope a stranger says "hi"
the bell for departures rings
she's nowhere to be seen
i'll have another
then drive home to sleep
lying awake tonight
what dreams will i seek
memory-plagued terror
or futuristic fear
adrift in that classic space
between lost and found
i have to get over wanting
before i can look around
it's nearly 3:40
on another morning
restless i join the masses
in a crowded lobby cafe
a voice from the audience
the face in the crowd
always the same familiar
disappointment round
i'll be here again
losing luster as i drink
pitch black coffee
and a glass of milk
i couldn't be here with her
or any of the others
the waiting isn't easier
as i get dully older
early some later morning
creeping up on 7:00
maybe i'll accept the evidence
i'm not meant to win
i'll close my eyes and exhale
set my cup in its saucer
then as i breathe again
open my eyes to her

for inspiration
i have a hand on the trigger
a ring for my little finger
and a bottle of wine

for revenge
i've built a solid trap
the cage that won't release
and a vial of acid

into the swirling clouds
i've poured my hate and dreams
scour the seas with corrosive salts
to clean it of your poison

for release
there's a gallon of milk
cut with rum and irish cream
and a bed of nails

for world peace
i built a bunker deep underground
set all the missles to fire at once
and a pill for sleep

into the blackened earth
i'll plant my golden seeds
a fertile sprawling plantation
to deny you a chance to thrive

Dragon*Con is a little less than two weeks away. I caught this over on the blog Girls Read Comics. Needless to say, it pisses me the fuck off. Women don't go to cons to get sexually assaulted. They go to cons to have a good time. People who feel entitled to grab, grope, molest, insult, and otherwise harass women deserve whatever adverse consequences they get. I've copied and pasted the full text below...

Overheard at San Diego Comic-Con while I was having lunch on the balcony of the Convention Center on Sunday July 27: a bunch of guys looking at the digital photos on the camera of another, while he narrated: "These were the Ghostbusters girls. That one, I grabbed her ass, 'cause I wanted to see what her reaction was." This was only one example of several instances of harassment, stalking or assault that I saw at San Diego this time.

1. One of my friends was working at a con booth selling books. She was stalked by a man who came to her booth several times, pestering her to get together for a date that night. One of her co-workers chased him off the final time.

2. On Friday, just before the show closed, this same woman was closing up her tables when a group of four men came to her booth, started taking photographs of her, telling her she was the "prettiest girl at the con." They they entered the booth, started hugging and kissing her and taking photographs of themselves doing so. She was confused and scared, but they left quickly after doing that.

3. Another friend of mine, a woman running her own booth: on Friday a man came to her booth and openly criticized her drawing ability and sense of design. Reports from others in the same section of the floor confirmed he'd targeted several women with the same sort of abuse and criticism.

Quite simply, this behavior has got to stop at Comic-Con. It should never be a sort of place where anyone, man or woman, feels unsafe or attacked either verbally or physically in any shape or form. There are those, sadly, who get off on this sort of behavior and assault, whether it's to professional booth models, cosplayers or costumed women, or women who are just there to work. This is not acceptable behavior under any circumstance, no matter what you look like or how you're dressed, whether you are in a Princess Leia slave girl outfit or business casual for running your booth.

On Saturday, the day after the second event I described above, I pulled out my convention book to investigate what you can do and who you can speak to after such an occurrence. On page two of the book there is a large grey box outlining "Convention Policies," which contain rules against smoking, live animals, wheeled handcarts, recording at video presentations, drawing or aiming your replica weapon, and giving your badge to others. There is nothing about attendee-to-attendee personal behavior.

Page three of the book contains a "Where Is It?" guide to specific Comic-Con events and services. There's no general information room or desk listed, nor is there a contact location for security, so I go to the Guest Relations Desk. I speak to a volunteer manning the desk; she's sympathetic to the situation but who doesn't have a clear answer to my question: "What's Comic-Con's policy and method of dealing with complaints about harassment?" She directs me to the nearest security guard, who is also sympathetic listening to my reports, but short of the women wanting to report the incidents with the names of their harassers, there's little that can be done.

"I understand that," I tell them both, "but what I'm asking is more hypothetical and informational: if there is a set Comic-Con policy on harassment and physical and verbal abuse on Con attendees and exhibitors, and if so, what's the specific procedure by which someone should report it, and specifically where should they go?" But this wasn't a question either could answer.

So, according to published con policy, there is no tolerance for smoking, drawn weapons, personal pages or selling bootleg videos on the floor, and these rules are written down in black and white in the con booklet. There is not a word in the written rules about harassment or the like. I would like to see something like "Comic-Con has zero tolerance for harassment or violence against any of our attendees or exhibitors. Please report instances to a security guard or the Con Office in room XXX."

The first step to preventing such harassment is giving its victims the knowledge that they can safely and swiftly report such instances to someone in authority. Having no published guideline, and indeed being unable to give a clear answer to questions about it, gives harassment and violence one more rep-tape loophole to hide behind.

I enjoyed Comic-Con. I'm looking forward to coming back next year. So, in fact, are the two women whose experiences I've retold above. Aside from those instances, they had a good time at the show. But those instances of harassment shouldn't have happened at all, and that they did under no clear-cut instructions about what to do sadly invites the continuation of such behavior, or even worse.

I don't understand why there's no such written policy about what is not tolerated and what to do when this happens. Is there anyone at Comic-Con able to explain this? Does a similar written policy exist in the booklets for other conventions (SF, comics or otherwise) that could be used as a model? Can it be adapted or adapted, and enforced, for Comic-Con? As the leading event of the comics and pop culture world, Comic-Con should work to make everyone who attends feel comfortable and safe.

Cite: Originally posted here.

she's swinging on a clothing line
pin clipped to the wire
a halo of birds surround her head
each one the color of fire
cotton balls turn ominious
coming to a head in the sky
she's pretending to be holy
prays to god she won't die
caught up in bleached sheets
drying in the peek-a-boo sun
she'd extend her arms cross-style
if it hadn't already been done
below on the lawn a boy
watches his mother swing
all her men lined up
their better halfs laughing
jackals in on the kill
he can't hold them back
then lightning her faithless friend
opens the sky with a crack
smoke in the rain as night falls
the smell of singed hair
burnt flesh and anguished cries
there is no shelter here

Even after a night of porn, booze, cookie dough, erotica, and physical ecstasy with my beau, I am unable to sleep. Since the recent theme of events seems to be loss, lemme name off the top 3:

I'm gonna miss Gabe so bad. It only fully hit me this evening...he's the third close friend I've lost to Vegas. Damn Vegas. I'm happy for him, though. I knew the school had to be mistaken to turn him down...
Gabe's gonna kick some desert cinema classes' asses. Woohoo!

Pilar fucked me over bad. End of story on that one. Those of you close to me, you know it already.

I've lost 15 pounds this month. Without trying. It's weird...so yeah, I'm down to 141. I don't like getting cold easier.

---

And this is a note on someone else's loss: You know who you are.
I'm sorry that it didn't work out for you as you hoped it would. I feel bad for you, but honestly, how could you have not seen it coming?

If finding lame excuses to contact me and watching my pages makes you feel better, then go ahead. But I learned my lesson. I can only hope for your sake that you have learned yours...

Don't take this in a negative way...my love doesn't stop when I say goodbye. You know, if you ever needed a place to stay for a bit out here, you know you can have Michelle's room. But to pursue a future together, instead of just nurturing the past, would be a poor decision on both our parts.

My face says: WRESTLING IS SERIOUS BUSINESS

Chyna is lovely and amazing, we had a wonderful shoot in LA recently I can't wait work on them...

Photo by Aries

BTW... she's really tall.  I'm still taller.  *flex*

But not so tall that she couldn't body slam me if she wanted.

what i've written
on the wall in crayon
in paint with my fingers
stands for more
than lipstick traces on your collar
the faded men's colone
wafting from your throat
i've let you travel
and never meant a word of it
shrugged off indignity
for hearts of stone
plastic precision
all the tumblers in place
turned every so slightly
to lock the door
and end this

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